When life gives you lemons...

Well, let's see when did I last post.
26th October 2013.
That is quite some time ago.

I guess I should restart blogging about the end of 2013.

For starters, I finally own a smartphone...
Technically, it's a tab with the function of calling people.
So.... yeah...

Then it was new years.
Everyone knows when there's new year, there's new year resolutions.
And mine is still 1366 x 768 for my laptop. Hahaha (not even funny)

My new year resolution was to let go of the past.
By the past, I mean almost everything.

Sure, I had fun and all those memories. But sometimes you just have to face the fact, things aren't going to be the same anymore.
Life is offering you new things, and if you keep holding on to the past, you just get left behind.

One of the things of the past is my love life.
It's so hard to get over this, and somehow, it is still quite a pain in the memories.
I tried to cut off all connections to my loved ones, but soon to realize, all those people are my friends right now, and it gave me a bigger realization, that I wouldn't have these friends in my life without them.
As much as it pains me, I couldn't do it.
I tried, and I lost a terribly good friend because of that.

I'm letting it all go, by all means, I'm finally looking forward and peeking only a little at the back.
It made me who I am, and I must remind myself to what I used to be, and what I must become.


Then, nothing much has happened since new year.

April came afterwards.
It was the most satisfying feeling ever.
I finished my last paper as a diploma student.
And as usual, I walked out of the hall as a legend.
Being the first person to walk out of the exam hall with so much psychological warfare towards others.
Kinda feel sorry for them too. But I'm more glad that I am finally done with diploma.
Aerospace Engineering, you just got beaten.
Well, at a diploma level at the very least.

Now, here I am, sitting in front of my laptop, writing this blog.
In a holiday mood, waiting for my results to come out within a month.

But more thoughts have come and go through my head.
Thoughts that are dark, and more depression comes ahead of me.

However, I am not gonna mention that part just yet, because I am still trying to sort out the thoughts I am having.

I think with that, I close this post with a welcome to read my blog again, and I thank you readers for reading it.
Hates, love, whatever you feel about it, I don't really mind, you read it, you choose to read it. I'm just posting what is in my head that I couldn't open up to people. That's why I made this blog.

...you make lemonades...

Comeback Post!

Hey'all!

It's been awhile.. by awhile I mean 3 months of while...

I've had nothing to post up... That's why it's been empty.. =_=

So.. For the past 3 months I've been learning photoshop and stuff.. some products I created have sucked, have been awesome, but generally at noob level.

Now, I'm into t-shirt designing...
I do want to try in the business of t-shirt design.. and my motto is "Simplicity is Best!"...

I've tried to come up the idea of the name of this line of design as
1. Pocket Creatures (P.C.)
2. My Design (M.D.)
3. Simplicity Design (S.D.)

Well.. haven't been really thinking about it much.. just came up with it..

Here's an example of the first product I've came up with...

The question is, would you buy it if it was available?

Jekyll and Hyde

Well, I have a busy day tomorrow but I can't seem to sleep early as I had planned =..=

Maybe I have too much on my mind.
What do I have on my mind?

I have no idea either. ._.

"Let's just make this post to keep the blog going."
That's one.

Well, ever had anything you kept very dearly and hold on to it for so long you almost forget but can't?
I had one. It was a poem I made for someone I used to be with. I can't remember much of it anymore. But sometimes, you just got to let go of things you love and move on. Even if it's a hurtful long journey.
I lost that poem somehow. If I still had it I would have posted it.
Unlucky for you readers. :P

Hmmm...
What else do I think of?
Sometimes I just don't know it myself. I tire myself thinking about stuffs but I myself don't even know what is it about. It's like I have another person doing it for me inside my head.

I guess that goes back to when I was a kid. I used to imagine of a person like a mirror of me to talk to about stuffs. I think all you guys would say it's an imaginary friend. But it's more like another personality of mine; like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.

Something like that...

I do it still sometimes, but not much now. Once in awhile. You may call me weird or more stuff you can think of. But it was, is the only place I can find my center of peace.
My nice side isn't always a nice side. It's always filled with death, anger, fury inside. But that side isn't completely with me...
How do I say it, it's like another person. A person that is inside of me. An alternate ego? Whatever you call it.

Sometimes, I talk to this person inside my head imagining that person would sometimes give me a beating for stuffs I do and stuffs I didn't do. But most of the time the talks goes pretty deep and I guess he's more calm and more wise. Resolves all the problems I have.

._.
This is one of the reasons why I am such an anti-social person. Also one of the reasons why I would be bipolar.

All in all, I have not seen this guy for almost a year. It's too dangerous to let that side out of me. It has the anger, grudge and fury of a serial killer. I guess with him gone, my anger management went much better.


But in the end, he will be leashed and go on rampage when someone breaks the seal (this side of me).




Okay... I think that's all for tonight's post. Before you guys start getting weird out by me. :D
I have thought of meeting a psychologist, but then.... Naaaah...
Things are the way there are because they are.
Some things you just have to let it be. A mind of a person is not something to explore. It is to understand.

A world of theater

Well yeah, this is not exactly posts about theater or any theatrical things in it.

Majorly its about the society. Truth about society. This is something close to what I've posted before; "Truth about people".

Everybody is an actor. We just pretend like we don't know about it.
The stage is vast. Enough for all of us. The world is our stage.
Our audience? There is no audience. All the people in the world are actors, acting with us.

Everyone expresses their emotions, their feelings, their lines, and tosses it out there to a conversation of dialogues with other people. Characters they play out. Characters of who they created unintentionally.

There's no bad actor, everyone is just as good. The difference is one actor would play as themselves, speaking in a tone of his true nature while one actor would speak in a tone of the character he wishes to be or a character that is more superior than the other. Lies from the mouths of them are just lines said to another.

There's always an actor that wants to kill off another character in acting, being the center of attention.
Everyone's playing the protagonist and antagonist roles. No one is really one sided. Everyone has their evil side. Just waiting to be leashed.

So which side do you really think you are? Look at yourself, review yourself on your life. What kind of person(character) have you played.

Think about it. It's a food for thought.
Thought for food?
I don't know..

A Horror Special!

*WARNING! Reader discretion is advised for pregnant woman, the elderly, and those suffering from serious medical condition*

You've been warned!

Well, I'm a horror lover, doesn't care if it's game, comics, movies, or story.

This post is created to just express my love for horror, for some reason I am in need of some horror experience for fun.

Well, I suggest to those who aren't a horror lover to stop here. Seriously. STOP.

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Now, for the rest who decided to continue to read.
I challenge you to a horror game!
Well, first, I wanted to invite you guys to play the game of Hotel 626, but since the owner have taken that game off the internet, here's a game replacement.

....The House....

 

If you don't want to download the flash player,
lets end this with a horror comic. Shall we?
Here's the link:
http://comic.naver.com/webtoon/detail.nhn?titleId=350217&no=31&weekday=tue

Please. I insist :)

The Return of the Jedi

It's been far too long!
Sorry for the late post, currently in my second week of the semester and I've already got assignments and final projects in hand =..=

Like I've promised, this post will be on how the studying system of mine works.. :D

Enjoy it in 10 easy steps...(well, not so easy XD)

1.       Always sit next to a person who is smart/atleast know a lot (studies frequent/gets it when lecturer is teaching)

2.       Do pay attention in class (taking notes is preferable). And yeah.. It’s good to understand. If you don’t, ask the lecturer/your smart guy next to you.

3.       When you really can’t understand something, TAKE NOTES.

4.       Take the rest of the day off, enjoy yourself (for me, it’s all gaming).

5.       Seriously, don’t open books. Unless someone asks for your help. Do help them. (helping someone, means you do research, means you are technically studying, also means you understand it better by explaining it to them)

“If you can’t explain it simply, you don’t understand it well enough” – Albert Einstein

6.       Homework, do it. Not necessarily immediately, but always do your homework. The nearer it is to the due date, the more inspirational you’ll become (or else you’re getting writer’s block. It also means you’re dead). 

7.       Do your work as simple as possible but ALWAYS submit a high quality end of work eventhough it is made 3 hours before due.
“I will always choose a lazy person to do a difficult job because he will find an easy way to do it.” – Bill Gates

8.       If you want to do something right, do it YOURSELF. Even if it is a team work, see the kind of people you are working with. If you really want to do it right, DIY. (Asks the team if they are really enthusiastic to do it, then they should be fine teammates. Whichever you prefer best)

9.       Doing a long term project can be overwhelming to be done at the last minute. After given, ALWAYS prepare the intro of the project (what is it mainly about). When you’re stuck, don’t force it. Chillax and take a break.
“It is no good getting furious if you get stuck. What I do is keep thinking about the problem but work on something else. Sometimes it is years before I see the way forward. In the case of information loss and black holes, it was 29 years.” – Stephen Hawking

10.   ALWAYS, always provide a REASON, not goal, a reason why you are studying. As for me, I’ve never like studying, and if it was possible, I wouldn’t be studying at all. Like I said, I’ve got my own reason why I’m studying and you should make one to as a stepping stone.

Well, these are the basics to my studying guide, I've never failed a subject before. It's up to you students to study like these, but I must warn you. USE AT YOUR OWN RISK! Because this is not completely foolproof.

Wazzzaaapp~!

So I've been lost for a few weeks, just to remind you guys I'll be updating soon :3

I'll be leaving for my studies soon and right now I'm just goddamn bored =_=